I Want To Move

Here is a song stemming from a desire to make right decisions in critical issues in my life. There seems to be an abundance of issues that "I'm" deciding right now. I quote 'I'm' because it's not me who is making these decisions—it just appears this was from my lame human view.

I Want To Move

Frozen as the world watches from afar
Truly not knowing me or my heart
That beats for the knowing of my days
That beats for the changing of my ways

It's my turn to move, hands shake with fear
The world watches me, what will I choose?

But I want to move in a way that’s true
In a way that’s good, that leads me to You

A cinder warm enough to glow
A blazing fire in my soul
That burns to see the path unknown
That burns to light the way back home

[July, 2005]


Listening to: The Blues - Switchfoot

You can always learn something from someone.

The Shadow Proves The Sunshine

Listening to: The Shadow Proves The Sunshine - Switchfoot

Sunshine won't you be my mother
Sunshine come and help me see
My heart is darker than these oceans
My heart is frozen underneath

Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
Well, the shadow proves the Sunshine
The shadow proves the Sunshine

Two scared little runaways
Hold fast till the break of daylight
Where the shadow proves the Sunshine
The shadow proves the Sunshine

Oh Lord, why did you forsake me
Oh Lord, don't be far away
Storm clouds gathering beside me
Please Lord, don't look the other way

Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
Well, the shadow proves the Sunshine
The shadow proves the Sunshine

Two scared little runaways
Hold fast till the break of daylight
Where, the shadow proves the Sunshine
The shadow proves the Sunshine

Yeah, yeah, shine on me.
Shine on me... Let my shadows prove the Sunshine.

A Call To Full Submission

[Note: I promised this to someone.]

A Call To Full Submission
By Nate M. Hanson

In order to be effective, one must be passionate. This is demonstrated everyday when a person works at some task. Their effectiveness of completing that task stems from their level of passion for it. If they lack passion for the task, the outcome—the “final product”—will be directly debilitated.
Such is the case with our task of serving God. Our level of passion for serving God directly effects how we will serve Him. Our service and surrender to God can range from extremely high to nearly nonexistent depending on the passion we have for Him. Now, a being’s passion for God is not set at a certain level never to be altered—a passion for God can mature and grow. In fact, a passion for God must mature and grow to be as effective as God has called us to be.
Most human beings are passionate about at least one person—we will use a spouse for an example. When a man enters into a marriage relationship with his wife he is thereby saying that her life is more important than his—he is promising to value her more than he values himself. Though quite a commitment and quite an example of passion, this is often viewed as a simple—or even “common” act. However, this act of existing in a marriage relationship, serving and caring for the other more than yourself, is a direct picture of the level of passion each of the spouses have for each other. I would hope that people entering into this marriage relationship would be willing to fulfill their promises to the point of dying for their spouse—this the true measure of passion.
The true measure of passion (and therefore, “effectiveness”) is to value that person or that thing more than you value yourself. There is a small level of passion taken to work and be effective at small tasks (as I showed earlier) but obviously this is not the same amount it takes to lay down your life for someone. And, laying down your life does not always mean dying. You can “lay down your life” for your spouse by valuing them more than yourself and therefore serving them.
As we’ve seen in the marriage relationship so we can translate to our relationship with God—our Heavenly Father. We are called to enter into a relationship—much the same as an earthly marriage relationship of service and surrender. Our level of passion for Him will directly determine our willingness to serve and “lay down our lives” and our effectiveness in doing so. As I said in regards to the earthly marriage relationship, we are called to value the one we have passion for more than ourselves. Such is true in our relationship with God. Our level of passion will determine what we will do for our Savior and how effective we will be in doing so.
Full submission is illustrated with serving and surrendering your own desires and will. This kind of true submission—this beautiful and “full” submission—only takes place when your passion for God is overflowing. When this is the case you will serve effectively and submit fully: Daily dying—sometimes literally—for the One you are truly passionate about.

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Fighting The Good Fight

Listening to: This Is The Last Time - Keane

"Fighting the good fight,

What does it mean? I have been using this “sign-off” for a couple years to remind me of my favorite verse:

1st Timothy 6:11-12
“But flee from these things, you man of God, and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, perseverance and gentleness. Fight the good fight of faith; take hold of the eternal life to which you were called, and you made the good confession in the presence of many witnesses.”

It’s a reminder, whenever I write this as a sign off, to pursue these vital characteristics in my life. It is an evident struggle to hold these character traits in this evil world. None of these things—righteousness, godliness, faith, love, perseverance, or gentleness—are promoted in our world… In fact, in this world, much the opposite is encouraged.

Because of all of this, I realize the achieving and holding of these qualities to be a “fight.” Besides, it’s not everyday you have a sign-off that can act as an opening to a deeper and more imperative conversation concerning eternal things.

fighting the good fight,

When You Try Your Best But You Don't Succeed

If I do something to please others, I fail. If I try my hardest to appear perfect for someone else, I will always come short. If I calculate and plan a way to appear "wise", I end up looking much the opposite.

And yet, I still try. It is this "trying", I fear, that gets me into trouble. In the absence of "trying" there is "relying." Or, more simply put, if I realize that I am not capable of doing anything, it will make it easy to rely on the One who is capable.

-I'm just reminding myself of an often forgotten and neglected truth.-